credits to

July:D

My Birthday has just passed and now Im officially 21 years old! whee. I am free.

From My last post, I had a few of happening times.

1) I passed my nursing board exam. I am a certified nurse now.

2) From the first picture, its been a while since we took photo together. mmm I miss them.

3) I had twice bday surprises. 1 from my mum,bf and friends and another one from my mum,sis bf and sis friends.( I love them :D )

So, i started working. Adapting to myself in the unit. Had a thick checklist to be fulfilled in 6 months. Pray to myself that I will able to achieve it.

24th June 2011

Its been a month since I blog. Day4 in Ipoh. Government exam ended. It was confusing . I hope I pass though.

Eventhough its just barely a week we left each other but I started to miss my classmates. I was not a friendly girl since the day I stepped into the college. But i do care for each of everyone in my class. hmm. Wish them luck in their future undertakings though.

I'm chosen to ICU. I was so excited when my principal announced it. So, 4 of us are chosen to ICU. We reported ourselves twice. 1 to the acting ward manager and another one real ward manager who has promoted. *confused*

In 6 months, I have to be competent enough already. At that time , I was curious whether I chose the right place and doubting whether I could achieve the requirements.

I have not much to say. Thats all for now. Hmm.

Post management

Right now, I'm using an app name Monarch, I don't know whether it's effective another, but I'm gonna give it a try.

He is in hong kong right now, the first few days I'm not used to it because he never leave me more than a week before. The reason I have this iPad 2 is because he doesn't want me to cry, he queued up for 4 hours just to get me this, I really appreciate for what he did because he knows I'm a cry baby, and made me promised him that I wouldn't cry when he is in hong kong. I face timed him, for the first few days, I was tearing because I missed him s much,till I started my night shift and went back ipoh for a few days, I was better with my mum talking to me.

During my night shift, I heard alot of stories about my own hospital. It's like they made me have the urge to just wanting to loan money from the bank and go to other hospital, perhaps overseas. But when I thought of it, the reason I grew up, it's them.

I have to thanked them anyway.

So, I've chosen my ward,

1st choice : ICU

2nd choice : most busiest ward in the hospital

Everyone included my superior were so surprised for what I've chosen.

1 : ICU is a place where 1nurse to 1 patient. A total care can be given to patient and from there, I can actually learn alot about diseases and management, perhaps, a real nurse should be like this. A total nursing care. People were surprised because ICU Is really critical and scary to them . LOL. I love there though

2: the ward, I'm the only one who chosen there, superior and work factor made them refused to go. I'm comfortable with them.

At the end of the day, it's still the principle and sister to choose. I'll be glad if I'm chosen in either one of them.

Needle prick injury

Today is my worst day ever. I tagged with 2 staff nurse. 1 senior : mouth damn terrible. know how to scold dont know how to settle. another 1 junior : same like me. still new.

I dont know what with today. as usual busy. But work seems like couldn't be done.

Mr A have to take blood. MO paged. I remember sister instructed StaffJunior to prepare for blood taking. Good enough she prepared 2 tubes only.

I was busy doing rounds with doctors. MO came. seeing everyone busy, i left and assist him.

He came as usual. The trolley was lack of things. i ran out once. and i wanan run out again. he asked me not to leave and he was angry. he took the blood and angrily pass the syringe with needle.

i wanna take the syringe. but the needle accidentally pricked me. at first i thought it was normal because there is no blood. until the blood flow out.

CN was like 'omg chai what you did la '

its not that i wanna be in this situation. I was my fingers under the running tap water while pressing the blood.

of course i cried. because I couldn't resist of doing mistake in the ward.

I saw the ward sister and the infection control nurse. Thank god they were understanding and did not blame me. if not i really couldnt take it.

Its not only the ward sister and infection control nurse. Soon, I have to see my principle and my tutors will know.

In my heart I was like ' jocelyn chai, your evaluation will be bad. '

Few days back, after serving medications, my staff tell me not be so panic and anxious. and i told her i cannot do mistakes. she said. somehow, mistakes makes you learn.

after today incident, I tell myself, i will make sure everything prepare well and i must be prepare for every situations and be more competent. I am going to be a Staff nurse. Life and Death of a patient will be on my hand.

This song is good. describe what i am feeling now.

On wednesday Morning, after His night shift, it was my off day, as usual I make ways to make him come and pick me for breakfast. LOL

Then he asked me what to eat because he was tired and sleepy. and i think. hmmm.. let me check it out at Vkeong blog ( as you all know he is a famous food blogger).

I feel like eating Bah Kut Teh. *sllluuurrrrpppp* He agree but where?

So we decided to go Yi Xin Ge Bah Kut Teh Restaurant.

He loves claypot Bah Kut teh but they only provide individuals. I'm not good in ordering Bah Kut Teh so he ordered 'pai kuat'(3rd picture) and 'sai kuat' (2nd picture )

It look raw and he asked me ' save to eat ah? ' "Save GUa"

The meat was delicious. yumm yumm.

The *suen choi* is not sour enough but it was okay. not too bad.

Actually we knew about this shop when we went for the chicken rice (few shops away) but we didn't really bother to go there.

And lucky enough, He got Saman. like WTF. He's the only car who got the saman.

1 1/2 years we are together and he got 3 saman because of me

1) Rm2.00 tong sui at Old town - Rm300 saman

2) some food i dont remember where

3) 1 week later, there, the Bah kut Teh.

this 3 places are the ones that i introduced him. LOL. sorry Baby.

Management Posting

Yesterday was my worst day. I never felt like crying in front of my supervisor. okayla. i cried once quarreling with my clinical instructor.

I was assigned to Serve medications and my friend who is supposed to incharge of the ward is OFF. so there are admissions. Therefore, I helped out. Its almost Passing report which is 1.45pm. 1.30pm She admitted. Some big shots in the hospital.

I am Learning and I need Guidance and supervision of course. I dont' know why for the first time i did the admission So slow. I was alone. my staff were busy, So i didn't ask them but they saw me.

When they are done :

Staff 1 said : Chai ah Chai. do finish de not? why so slow one?

me : Oh i need you to check for me.

Staff 1 : ( checked 1 paper when there's 10 paper ) ah ok la.

* Disappear *

Staff 2 : come come I help you . (flipping through the notes )

As i was writting , when I look at other side * Vanished *

Because Its the end of passing report it mean new shift starts.

I was alone there. Those big shots PM staff come out . standing beside me and start speaking Hokkien. I don't know what are they angry of.

Staff 3 : CHAI! what Are you doing ALONE! your STAFF LEH!

me : Huh i don't know la staff. Its okay i can do myself.

then its done. i Passed over and staff 3 checked through. she said ' who teach you this? tell me. '

I kept quiet of course. *holding my tears * Its 3.30 pm.

Thank god my supervisor came out wanting to leave . I told her to check through.

Apparently at first she was reluctant. then my PM supervisor told her that my documents were accurate its just the arrangement. Then only she signed. * was told by my friend who waited for me to go back *

As usual I cried when I heard his voice.I really "CANNOT TAHAN LA" . OMG. Feel so terrible. ahhh...But it was a good experience because I know I cannot count on them next time. Period.